I miss you so much. / Momma Hi son. I had a really horrible day at work today. In a way I am glad you are not here to deal with all this crap. I know if you had have been here you would have protected your momma. As it is, I had to deal with it all by myself. God how I miss you. Sometimes I don't know what to do with myself. I wish you were here. It's me being selfish. I know you are where you are supposed to be. I just don't understand it sometimes. I am scheduled to have that next surgery on October 2nd. I know you will keep me safe, as you always have, even when you were here with me. I love you so much, son, more than you or anyone will ever know.
My life here is so miserable without you / Momma
Hi son. I am off to the doctor today to see when he wants to do the next surgery. Found out yesterday that the cancer has elevated from low grade to high grade since right after your funeral. I love you so much. I can't wait to see you again. Keep me safe today. I will talk to you later. love, momma
An honor to know you and your family / Whitney Partin (one of your nurses ) A warm hello to mom and family. The days and nights never stop here as we continue to take care of the sick ones but I will never forget Derrick and his loving family. Please know I send my thoughts and love to you as you heal and remember your wonderful son. Love, Whitney (night weekend nurse)
Bad storm / Momma Good morning, son. We had a storm here last night. I will have to go out to your resting place and gather up yours and grandpa's flowers (if I can find them) and try to make something presentable out of them. I might just go get some new ones. Depends on this weather. It is still raining now, so whoever you have to talk to up there, let them know I need a break in the rain!! I love you son. I will talk to you later.
You've been talking to Mattie / Momma
Hi baby. Margaret came over here this afternoon. She said Mattie was talking to you today. I hope you told her to be good in school tomorrow!! You know she is not going to enjoy it! She may surprise us all. We just had a really bad storm. Lightening struck the tree right next to the house on the north side by Lucy's dog house. Chris and I were watching it when it hit. It was scary. Hurt my eyes!! I asked you for a sign that you were here and the tree gets hit. Was that you?!?! Next time send me a quieter sign!! I love you son. Spread your wings and fly.
LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER-MOMMA
Something wrong? / Momma Derrick, I just came from your resting place. Yes I know I shouldn't be out driving after dark, but it is the only way to see your cross glowing. I get out there, and your cross is NOT glowing. Is something wrong? I thought maybe it was because the flowers were too close to the solar panel, so I moved them over a little. Maybe that will work. I will check again tomorrow night. If it doesn't, I will have to get you another one. Missy gave you that one. I was hoping to get your headstone in time for your birthday, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen. I am so sorry. We just want it to be perfect. I love you, son. I will talk to you tomorrow.
And God Said....... / Diane Angel Mom- Katie Cassidy I said, God I hurt And God said, I know
I said, I cry alot And God said, That's why I gave you tears
I said, Life is so hard And God said, That's why I gave you loved ones
I said, But my loved one died!! And God said, So did mine!!
I said, It's such a great loss!! And God said, I saw mine nailed to a cross!!
I said, But your loved one lives!! And God said, So does yours!!
I said, Where is he now?? And God said, My Son is by my side and Your Son is in my arms!!
momma misses you / Momma Derrick, my sweet baby, I know you are not a baby anymore, but you will always be a baby to me. You didn't get to see Lucy's babies when you were here on this earth. Two have passed away. The grey one and the black and brown one. They are probably chasing you and your horses as I am typing this. I know you have made all kinds of new friends up there and your grandma Haynes and Grandpa Ted are taking good care of you. I know you are taking care of Jason, Gage, and Jillian too. Your birthday is coming up and I will have your cake and trick candles, just like we always have. Darriann had trick candles for her birthday, she wanted to carry on your tradition. She misses you so much too. I love you, my special son. I will see you again soon.
I read your message at the forum. We haven't reached Nicky's birthday yet so I can't really give you suggestions. But my heart goes out to you with all that is going on and yet the pain is still so raw. Please know I do care and will be lifting you in prayer. Our health is so at risk to begin with with such pain of losing our children. Your body is already overtaxed to begin with. Take care of yourself as well.
I can't believe the fools that make such horrible comments. I don't think I would be sane if I didn't have Nicky's site and the support from everyone at the forum. My sister is the only family member to visit Nicky's site. And none of them give me support. My church was so helpful when Nicky had surgery. Now where are they?? My husband grieved for 3 months and said he was finished. No one talks about Nicky. I have one devoted friend through all of this. Truly this is not what God had in mind for everyone to do when you lose a child. So the heck with what the fools say and think. They have never been in our shoes and hopefully they never will. I am sorry you had to meet us this way but I'm glad you found us. We are always here for you and would never say such hurtful things to you. We are here to offer you unconditional love and support.
Lots of Hugs, Dianne
God how I miss you / Momma Derrick, I know you are watching over me right now. I had a pretty rough day today, so please wrap me in your angel wings and hold me tight. I sleep in your bed at night. I sleep with your John Deer blanket and your pillow that you never would let me touch when you were here with me. I can't help it. People tell me they know how I am feeling. I am not sure about that. If you haven't lost a child, then I'm sorry but you don't know. Goob was on tv the other night. He's not looking real well right now. I heard it was the cystic fibrosis. It's acting up agian. So you need to wrap your special friend in your wings and keep him close. School starts Monday. Your link is posted on the Ram Channel so your friends will be visiting soon. When the triplets lit their candles for you yesterday, Simon asked if you had a computer in Heaven so you could read your email!! How's that for smart? They start school Monday too. First grade. They miss you so much. Alex cries when she is here with me. Christian wanted a cd with your favorite songs on it. I made him one with your music from the funeral, the dove release, and some of your Bon Jovi and Nelly. Crissy said they listen to it every night when they go to bed. Usually when the Nelly songs come on they are asleep. Christian wants to borrow some of your Playstation games. I let him have some, but not all. Other than that, nothing really exciting is going on here. Know that I miss you more than words can say. My heart is missing a big piece right now. It's with you. I love you, LOVE MOMMA
Beautiful/ Robbie Holt (Aunt) Marsha, this is amazing and beautiful. I am so proud of you and this site. Awesome.
Bubby, miss you much; no one calls me "Ahbbie" anymore. I don't believe there has ever been a pair of blue eyes as beautiful as yours. We love you and miss you.
so sorry / Stephanie Laberdee I am so sorry for your loss. I did not know your son, but I'm sure he was a very special person. I recently lost my nephew in an accident, so I can imagine your pain. I hope God will guide you through the rest of your journey. May you find peace, again so sorry.
I am so sorry! / Theresa [Ty's Mom] Marsha - Words cannot express my concern for you and your family over Derrick's accident. I am terribly sorry. Thanks for sharing his pictures. None of us here can understand God's plans - Love & prayers!
God Bless you! / Gail -. Mom To Kendra Jones I know your pain - and it's a long journey. I lost my daughter, Kendra Jones, 16 1/2 years old back in November of 2005. Her friend Alyson Keiser, 16 1/2 years old also passed away in the same accident. They were on their way to school. The pain of losing a child is the worst thing a parent can go through. Derrick seems like a wonderful young man and I'm pretty sure my daughter Kendra has already met him in Heaven, she wanted to marry a cowboy and have 5 kids, plus she wanted to live in TN. God will take care of our children for us until we get there. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone - it's tough but God will help us through it. I'm here if you need me.
Gail Robinson, mom to angel Kendra Jones
In Honor of Derrick! / Killians Mommy, Keena
God Bless your family, I know they have broken hearts, but because of Gods eternal promise, they will see you again..what a smile you have Derrick, Luv & prayers, Keena, Killians Mommy
THIS SHOULD MAKE YOU FEEL CLOSER TO HOME DERRICK.............---......... / CHRIS GOLLINGER (ANGEL MOM OF BRADLEY EVANS ) I WILL SHARE MY PICTURE OF THE GREAT SMOKIES WITH YOU SWEET ANGEL. WHEN I DIE, MY SONS ASHES AS WELL AS MINE WILL BE SCATTERED HERE. I HOPE YOU AND BRAD ARE GREAT FRIENDS BY NOW. TWO GOOD OLE TENNESSEE BOYS. GOD BLESS YOU AND ALL WHO LOVE AND MISS YOU SO. MY HEART JUST ACHES FOR YOUR MOM. LOVE TO YOU BOTH.........................XXOO CHRIS
Memory........./ Shelly Alwayskennysmom When someone you love becomes a memory,the memory becomes a treasure.Remembering them is easy,we do it every day.Missing them is a heartache that never goes away.......
One of the First / Jan Parker (Sub Teacher @Paragould ) Derrick was one of the first students that I remembered his name from the first day I met him..He was always smiling, always had a kind word to say to me. Over the past 3 years I realized what a loving kind young man he was becoming. I always enjoyed when I had him in a class room because he could always make me smile. Derrick, I will miss you this year when I sub ,I know the angels are now enjoying your loving smile and funny jokes. You will be missed.
In the arms of an angel / Pam Vaughn (davids Mom)
Miss Me-But Let Me Go
When I come to the end of the road and the sun has set for me. I want no rites in a gloom filled room why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little-but not too long and not with your head held low. Remember the love that we once shared Miss Me-But Let Me Go.
For this journey that we all must take and each must go alone. It's all a part of the Master's plan a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart go to the friends we know, and bury your sorrows in doing good deeds. Miss Me-But Let Me Go.
God Bless You,
in loving memory with well wishes / John Lane (friend of his mom ) although tragedy brings sorrow, and death brings sadness. always KNOW, with sadness comes triumph, with pain comes rememberance of how good things are for him where he is now.
although he's no longer in THIS world, where he is, he's smiling down at us all, and in SUCH a better place!